grounded

and I retreat all together

because today is not enough

"why does no one laugh?" I ask, "I need it in order to mend"

"how can we laugh?" you whisper as I follow

"you are in the land of the mute, my friend,

we are all hollow"

always an addition after all affirmation

Better borrow balance between

culminating catastrophies. Can't count consisting

dangers! don't delay

- evil exists . End every eager

fight for forgiveness.

Get going!

Hell has hatred

in itself, its inner

just

keeps knocking,

life's literally lost. Leave!

My mind might

not necessarily

open.

Pass people protesting promptly. Put

querimonies

right really rapidly. Remember,

souls steal strength, suck

trust through the

unbalanced

vices

we welcome when we want

xenagogues.

Yronne! You're

zero.

it is all stunning when you make it

In our memories we are one

no longer separated by the lies we're entwined in

solid as rock
(do you remember breaking them?)
yes I recall our complete happiness,

bright shiny days

(constructed but who cares?)

slipping the world out of our minds while making it up from scratch

Out of cardboard and pixiedust

our walls are raised and painted

I remember finishing them during the latest set of

games we played

(don't worry, you will recall it too)

You smile, I can see it even though your not around,
we no longer need ourselves to live
(we are all manufactured)
And even though the picture is pretty we can't leave it there and you call it
pulchritudinous
remember?

as I breathe I vanish

Moving along,
past excuses, past all the wanted,
the needed, the sorrow
leaving the darkness, the steal and the stone
Drifting between it,
between them who strangle
between all the air that in boxes can't escape
Counting the daylight,
the memories, the epiphanies
counting and labeling to keep up
put
out
Speeding in vacuum,
to pass them, to stay there
behind
Piecing together
the wrong way, the right way
while asking what's left when everything seems right
They pick up, they fold up
excuses, exceptions
lap up your words as you pour them out
never stopping
always standing,
not stepping but we just never
give in and we
stop to
move along

guilty as charged

the t (h)orn -s-

are unwanted
get rid of them now

let's not get hurt

in their presence

inclined to fail

the distance is barely there

a conscious attempt to

what?

separate

but the miles are real

and the trip is made

home?

there is none

anymore

my permanent solution

and I sketch my outline

with crayon and chalk

to pretend it's all undone

when I walk through my rain

and hide where it's grey

all they can see is my handcrafted sun

skin

She can't see it anymore,
what she always desired
her throat is still sore
her mind always tired

standing on her scales
she is not what they need
they call her tough as nails
she uses them to bleed

Staring at her mirrors
hiding what is wrong
focusing on errors
trying to be strong

She knows she always fails
but refuses to give in
it's all in her details
and she is dying to be thin

spinning unbalanced

STOP

let her off, it's all way too fast

stop procrastinating

end the ride

she can't stand (it) anymore

walk the line

I am tired

exhausted

fed up with it all

I rant and complain

we will always stay small

agreeing

nodding

I can feel your consent

we're not exactly the same

but we are to a certain extant

Listen

just trust me

I have thought of it all

kick off your shoes at the door

and take my hand as we fall

self-explanatory

and I remember when you told me

that I take up too much space

no matter what they say

I will

waste away

yes I am done with these lies

there is nothing more to say

I might be here today but

I will

waste away.

under pressure

If I felt (us) long ago I am no longer able to care because I can see you where you are now

broken

and I smile as you're gathering the pieces no longer there

I'm sorry

but I have to admit it you were perfection when still whole and kicking you away is too fulfilling - too gratifying to let go

I'm sorry,

could we please rewind? let's watch it all in slow motion - you figured you would outlast you would still stay strong but after blows and hits and all that breathing I can't even count you anymore

I'm sorry,

did I lose you? I never really cared and you mentioned how I swayed so I will be the first to say you can't mend what's not complete and the pieces in my pockets are nowhere to be found
they will stay there till you beg me and when you do I will deny

I'm sorry,

do you mind? please move out of my way since it's all a part of the game
my love
we are all just parts of ourselves.